Playing by the rules is hard. You don't always want to and it's not that you can't, you won't. I used to tell the kids when they were little that there is a big difference between "can't" and "won't". They'd look at me with that little crinkle in their forehead right above their noses and think about it. One is an actual inability to do something and the other is a choice.
Taryn and I butted heads a lot. She was such a free little spirit that didn't want boundaries and I was the one who reigned her in. There were times she hated that. There were times she thanked me for it. I think it made her feel loved. I wanted her safe and sometimes the crazy things she wanted to do were dangerous. Deep down I think she knew that I only wanted what was best for her but she was in her phase of discovering that for herself. Mistakes need to be made in that phase and they hurt.
She had her heart broken a lot. She would have crushes on guys and I never could understand why that bone headed boy didn't thank his lucky stars he had a girl like Taryn interested in him. It's because they couldn't see it all. Start to present, the whole package. That boy only saw the outside, the gift wrapped part. Not the treasure inside. Oh and she was a rare gem. One in a million. Talent, beauty, creative wit and so funny. Her sense of humor was legendary. She could get what she wanted so easily. Even beautiful girls are insecure though. And she had her share of doubt in her mind about just how much she could get away with.
Still. When I think of her, I admire that ability she had to be so able to present a picture of perfection even if it wasn't always that way. She was the Pina to my Colada. She loved the Pina Colada song too. It was my ringtone when she would call me. Everything ocean and everything fun.
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