Christmas is coming

Remembering Taryn Elkins and Kayan William Trujillo

Published by Adele Marshall · October 4, 2017 · 

I've been missing her a lot lately, more than usual. I think the holidays are going to be tough, Kayan would be 9 months old and so unbelievably adorable. There's so much I want and wish for so much that a heart can't seem to accept no matter what reality dictates. All the little "firsts" that won't happen here on this earth for my little man, and my girl who lights up with joy at his progress through his first year of "firsts". Me and Adrian do our best and that's all we can do. The thing is I can picture it all. I really can. I don't know if that's something everyone does who goes through something like this or if it's unique to me. Maybe she sends me the images and lets me feel that joy somehow through her eyes. I thank God for it no matter how it gets to me it's there. Playing with him, kissing him and rocking him to sleep. Feeling my heart soar when he giggles, crawls or takes his first steps. Watching Taryn dress and feed him. Seeing the relationship between her and Adrian blossom and deepen with every accomplishment as a family. We all need to go on but this life, this wonderful thing that took a detour is waiting in eternity for us. Just knowing that is like knowing Christmas will come. Being excited for it. Planning for it. I can hardly wait to swing him around and giggle with him. This life seems long and even with time flying by I want to be with them so much the happiness is there, what a blessing it is to be able to see those pictures so clearly. Two lives that combine to make one really special experience here. Christmas is coming. That thought fills me with joy.